DMX Explains His Bipolar Disorder

    dmx2“I’m not the person the media portrays me to be,” DMX says. “X is the bad guy. That’s not who I am. I’m not that person you see on TV.”

    Earlier this year, DMX turned to Dr. Phil. DMX has opened up about his personal struggles. During the interview, he revealed that he suffers from bipolar disorder, which causes severe mood swings between mania and depression. The troubled star also discussed his battle to beat drug addiction and his history with dog fighting.

    READ: What’s The Difference Between Bipolar Disorder & Depression?

    “I used to be really clear on who was what and what characteristics each personality had. But I don’t know at this point. I’m not even sure there is a difference,” he continued. “I’m Earl when I’m with my children. I miss my children, I miss my children, I miss my children.”

    DMX, whose struggles with substance abuse have been documented for a long time, says that he’s trying to get clean and is taking it one day at a time.

    “Every day, I start my day off with a prayer to guide my steps. Cover me and keep me safe. Every album, there’s a gospel song and a prayer. Every album, from the beginning.”

    As difficult as it is for the media to discern between Earl Simmons and DMX, the rapper has similar issues on a personal level and says that he’s not even sure that there is a difference sometimes: “I used to be really clear on who was what and what characteristics each personality had. But I don’t know at this point. I’m not even sure there is a difference. I’m Earl when I’m with my children. I miss my children, I miss my children, I miss my children.”

    It’s not uncommon among those living with mental illness to also struggle with drug addiction. Many dealing with depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia and other significant illnesses will often attempt to medicate the symptoms with drugs and alcohol, ultimately developing an addiction as a result. Dual Diagnosis treatment is often the only way to get help for both disorders at the same time.

    For now, DMX is working on staying clean and sober in addition to getting the help he needs for bipolar disorder – “one day at a time” is his motto and spirituality is his guide:  “Every day. I start my day off with a prayer, as God to guide my steps. Cover me and keep me safe. Every album there’s a gospel song and a prayer. Every album, from the beginning.”

    “There will never be another me, never,” he said. “To this day, I have records that have yet to be broken.”

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