“I’m not the person the media portrays me to be,” DMX says. “X is the bad guy. That’s not who I am. I’m not that person you see on TV.”
Earlier this year, DMX, which stand for “Dark Man X” turned to Dr. Phil. DMX has opened up about his dark past and personal struggles. During the interview, he revealed that he suffers from bipolar disorder, which causes severe mood swings between mania and depression. The troubled star also discussed his battle to beat drug addiction and his history with dog fighting.
“I used to be really clear on who was what and what characteristics each personality had. But I don’t know at this point. I’m not even sure there is a difference,” he continued. “I’m Earl when I’m with my children. I miss my children, I miss my children, I miss my children.”
DMX, whose struggles with substance abuse have been documented for a long time, says that he’s trying to get clean and is taking it in stride.
What many may not know is that DMX has been ordained as a Deacon at a Christian ministry in New York State before 2009 and is looking forward to delivering his very first sermon.
“I read the whole bible. I just been made a deacon at the church I used to go to—Morning Star. I would like my first sermon to be there or in Yonkers.”
DMX, interestingly, muses about what it means to be ready for true transformation and realizes that reading the Bible is not enough.
“The biggest step is not in the studying, reading, but the wanting to change the way you live. Wanting different things for yourself, and making that change because if you still want to drink and smoke, you could read as much as you want, that doesn’t mean you’re ready.”
Despite multiple jail stints and highly publicized turmoil in his life, the rapper maintains that he desires to serve the Lord, eventually retire from music, and settle down as a preacher.
As difficult as it is for the media to discern between Earl Simmons and DMX, the rapper has similar issues on a personal level and says that he’s not even sure that there is a difference sometimes: “I used to be really clear on who was what and what characteristics each personality had. But I don’t know at this point. I’m not even sure there is a difference. I’m Earl when I’m with my children. I miss my children, I miss my children, I miss my children.”
Bipolar disorder, formerly known as manic depression, can mean wild mood swings and extreme shifts in energy, which can make it difficult to get things done every day. Patients who live with the disorder often have a hard time maintaining stability, especially when interacting with other people. They may have explosive outbursts of…