My Story: “I Played With My Life”
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I used to be that girl who used sex to fill voids in my life. I enjoyed attention and supplemented my own self hatred with the adoration I got from men because of my plump lips and flirtatious ways.
When my ex-boyfriend rejected me, I called up my friend-with-benefits to satisfy my emptiness. I didn’t think about the possibilities of my reckless behavior.
I used protection with my friend but with my ex, I showed him that “I loved him” by letting him mistreat me and not wear a condom. Needless to say, he was less than faithful and possibly put me in a bad position. It was as if I had a death wish.