…that made me angry all the time.
I felt: It is my job that was bestowed upon me by God, to procreate, be fruitful and multiply and I was having difficulty doing what some women simply take for granted.
Sex had become a chore in my marriage and was no longer an enjoyment, and at that point, I treated my husband like a tool for baby making verses making love to him as I should have.
Although we loved each other, I started to feel less desirable to my husband.
At one point, he actually lied to me, so that he could go and hang with his guys. My ex-husband felt bad that he had a life outside of work, kids, and me.
Looking back, I don’t blame him.
As the years went by, I still had no baby and my health was not better at all.
The stress of not being able to conceive and the abrupt lifestyle changes of living with Lupus began to take a toll on me mentally, physically and emotionally.
I am angry all the time, mostly at my husband. He worked many hours per week at the hospital and it felt as though, when he…