was my thing. I’m a shy introverted type of guy. I said that’s for them and not for me.
What has it done for you as a person to be operating in your gift
Because I’m a shy, introverted type of person in my mind this gift was perfect. It allowed me to be behind the scenes. I didn’t have to be up front. I didn’t have to sing a note. I just thought I would write and give other people the words to communicate it and deliver it to the people.
Reflecting on my time with Ashmont Hill I think of the Lord’s intentionality with everything he does. I think of that time as a training ground to prepare me for what is happening in my life right now. I have siblings who are the life of the party, extroverted, leading people and you can tell it’s their thing. I stood behind them as the writer and producer, but they were really out front.
Going through a really difficult season the last three years of my life. I feel like in that season the Lord started to speak to me about getting out front. The Lord gave me more songs than ever in this season. All of the songs that he gave me I just knew in my gut that they were not Ashmont Hill songs.
My prayers started to change a little bit. I was asking the Lord does he want me to step out. I felt in my gut that’s what he wanted me to do. As I look over my life I see myself as the one who never really wanted this. I was so afraid of this.
When you read the word you’ll see that God uses the underdog type of people. Moses asked God, “Are you sure? I stutter”. I was so afraid of this, but the Lord is so intentional. Every step of the way I grow a little bit more comfortable. Every time I take the stage I say the same prayer. “Lord you take center stage so that you would be seen. And that you would be glorified.”
I look at my peers with such awe about how much talent they have. Without naming names and knocking anybody because the talent and gifting come from God. The way they sing. The way they move. I’m in awe of that. That’s why I